The Buddhists tell us:
- Life means suffering.
- The origin of suffering is attachment.
Suffice it to say that I'm suffering today. I'm suffering because I had formed an attachment to a potentiality that did not come to fruition. I had begun to imagine a transformation in my life; a change that I imagined would be for the better. Well, the transformation did not take place and the imagined better life is no longer a potentiality.
Of course, there is no way to know if, had the transformation occurred, my life would actually have improved. It may well have turned out to be less than I imagined, less than what I hoped for. So, I temper my dejection with that knowledge.
Nonetheless, it hurts to lose a dream.
Now, I have to gather myself, shake off the disappointment, and start all over again. Everyone knows disappointment; it's part of being human. And, it's important to keep in mind that things could be a whole lot worse.
No real epiphanies or insights today, I'm afraid. Just an acknowledgment of the wisdom of the Buddha. Life is suffering.